Relax Devotional


So I am happy to announce that I came in 3rd place for the writing competition.  I can say that my lack of beta shows and I know now where to improve. I am just so blessed that I can share my relationship with God with all of you!

I know that we all have been struggling lately. You can not turn on the TV or even look at your phone with out seeing the state of the world today. As a Christian it actually hardens my heart to the world. Christ commands us to be an example on how to not live in the world but as my heart hardens; I slip slowly back into the world I was begging God to help me escape. I slip back in to the world because I get angry about the state of things and I sit back and do nothing. I slip back into the world because I let fear over take me and I begin to worry. However I know that walking in faith means giving up worry for trust and faith in Christ. And what a blessing to strive for! To be affirmed enough in faith to be able to relax and trust God when all you want to do is worry. “ In peace I will lie down and sleep for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe” (Psalms 4:8). I remind myself of this daily yet the thoughts inside my head continued to spin until the Holy Spirit said to me “I am with you”. It was the faintest sound, but I know I heard it and in that moment I knew what it meant to relax, to be at peace. Once I realized the he truly was with me slowly my brain and body began to relax. I struggle with anxiety and depression but He is with me and I can relax knowing “I will fear no evil.”

Home Making and Chronic Illness: You are more because you do it with less.


I just want to make it know to all of my readers. I am not perfect. I struggle to do daily tasks; and I was like this long before I got sick or saved. I also want everyone of you to know that I pray that on day we will all day be able to live with out pain. Even if it is for only one day. I pray that we all are able to cherish the good days and remember that its okay that when you are well that you went out with your husband or friends instead of cleaning your house. We all deserve to walk among the living for we too are also living, just differently.

I have learned a few things in this study of this verse:

  • Idleness is not Rest and God does want us all sick or not to rest. For if you are well and do not rest you will get sick and if you are already sick you will get sicker.
  • A home management binder helps you fight idleness, fibro fog, and depression! You see when I first started using it I thought it was stupid. As the week went on though it fought my depression because I could encourage “next day Bella” and motivate myself by seeing all that I had done. Every little thing you do does matter and God and the people that love you notice. I also can fight memory problems by writing things down and it helps my husband see whats going on as well.
  • If you take anything away from   this at all I hope it is this:

You are more because you do it with less. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Its not a lie, its true you just have to have faith in God and yourself. If you have faith in God he will help you gain faith in yourself eventually. You just have to hang on. Remember God says “Do not fear for I am with you” and if you continuously remind yourself of this TRUTH, you will become a better Chronic Illness Warrior!

Join me now as we looking into the next part of being a Proverbs 31 woman: INDUSTRY!

Yes we can be industrious even when we are sick and I am going to tell you how. I love you all and you are in my prayers.

Inspiring Women in Red

Posted by Greater Wicomico Republican Women on Thursday, June 8, 2017


I wanted to share this amazing video of Del. Marybeth Carozza giving a great speech on how running for office can make a difference. We had such an amazing turn out and I am proud to be apart of organization actually working to make a difference in my community!

Requirements for Submission: Does your husband love you like Christ loved the Church?


Does your husband love you like Christ loved the Church?

This has come up in multiple groups I belong to. It actually frightens me and I want to be very open and honest with all of my readers. Not everyone is going to agree with me however I want to spread this message.

First and Foremost! God has a definition of love. It is as follows “Love is patient and kind. Love is not JEALOUS or boastful or Proud or RUDE. IT DOES NOT DEMAND ITS OWN WAY! It is not irritable and it keeps no records of being wrong. It does not rejoice at injustice but rejoices when ever the truth wins out. Love never gives up and never loses faith, is always hopeful and endures through every circumstance” 1 Corinthians 13:47.

Secondly, these are some other definitions I want to talk about (and we probably don’t talk about it enough):

“Spousal abuse is generally defined as any abusive conduct between intimate partners who are married, dating, or residing in the same residence. It can refer to single instances of abuse, although it usually refers to a pattern of repeated or cyclical abuse over time”

“We define domestic violence as a pattern of abusive behavior in any relationship that is used by one partner to gain or maintain power and control over another intimate partner. Domestic violence can be physical, sexual, emotional, economic, or psychological actions or threats of actions that influence another person.”

“Verbal abuse (also known as reviling or “verbal bullying”) is described as a negative defining statement told to the victim or about the victim, or by withholding any response, thereby defining the target as non-existent.”

“Gaslighting is a form of psychological abuse used by narcissists in order to instill in their victim’s an extreme sense of anxiety and confusion to the point where they no longer trust their own memory, perception or judgment. … The emotional damage of Gaslighting is huge on the narcissistic victim.”

Lastly, this is what the Bible says about how husbands should act:

Genesis 2:24English Standard Version (ESV)

“ Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.”

Ephesians 5:25-29English Standard Version (ESV)

“25 Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, 26 that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, 27 so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish.[a] 28 In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 29 For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church,”

Colossians 3:19 English Standard Version (ESV)

“19 Husbands, love your wives, and do not be harsh with them.”

1 Peter 3:7 English Standard Version (ESV)

“7 Likewise, husbands, live with your wives in an understanding way, showing honor to the woman as the weaker vessel, since they are heirs with you[a] of the grace of life, so that your prayers may not be hindered.”

Now I do think that every one gets to make their own choices. However I want to be clear that God does give us Very Clear instructions on what to look for in a husband. Therefore if your husband does not meet the requirement you must look at the relationship in front of you and decide. I have seen the consequences of abuse and I do not want anyone (man,woman,or child) to be in an unhealthy situation just because they’re afraid that God will be upset. Please remember always to be a light to your Christian sisters and remind them that God FORGIVES!

  1. Is this a healthy Marriage or a marriage with the potential to be healthy?
  2. God will respond in your life and if you are paying attention you will know what to do with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
  3. If you marriage has any of the behavior in the definitions above you are in a sick and potentially dangerous situation. Reach out for help. (Links Below)

Join the fight stop domestic violence.


Lately I have been reading so many statements from women of all walks of life having this conversation. They seemed confused and  I was touched by the Holy Spirit because the Bible is very clear on the matter. Please see the links below if you or some one you know is in need of help. Or if you would like to get involved and join the fight against domestic violence.

CCD Week 4



So I was out for week 3 hence why it goes from 2 to 4. I swear I can count! After being gone for a week my kids were super jumpy. The week I was gone the kids were in with the third grade class, so I have no idea what they did. They told me but all at once and at 100 mph!

So get out a lot of this energy we did our opening prayer. The kids really like saying the Our Father Prayer and so I let them run with it.

After our opening prayer I lined everyone up on the side of the room.

I began exuding people and switching them to spots all over the room. Trust me they needed the run. When then continued to exclude people by the following:





Then my favorite part comes where I make my kids think! What I love most about these open ended questions is that my kids really put their thinking caps on.

  1. Why is this unfair? – Because it is wrong to separate ourselves from people because they are different. (My kids took a minute to understand but eventually did get to this point, my aid tried to help them don’t they understand this concept).
  2. What do we do when we see people excluding others.- One of my kids just walked to the side of the room where the kids who were excluded were standing. The answer however is Join them, stand up for them, be there for them
  3. Did Jesus Exclude People? NO!
  4. Why not?- This one took a while as well but eventually one of my kids got it! Because Jesus said everyone is worthy of love and he calls us to love everyone!
  5. What about when we are forced to exclude people because maybe they are sick? The kids did not have an answer which was fine. It lead us into our Gospel Luke 17:11-19 Jesus and the Lepers.             After reading the Gospel to the kids they had a few questions like what is a lepers etc? Eventually the right question came out. “Jesus healed those people but other people can catch that sickness, what do we do” Answer: The Bible says that we are to love them we live in a time where we can thank God for all the amazing doctors and hard working people who keep us safe from sickness. God calls some of us to be healers and doctors and for those of us he doesn’t it is our job to help those people in whatever way we can without harming ourselves.


After they had finally calmed down we were able to work on our activity.

Doing praying through art. We have been learning about prayer and ways we can pray. That expressing ourselves to God can help us get through tough times. And we don’t always need to pray the traditional way to get that done.

I had them draw pictures and write a sentence of something that they thank god for it was very effective. The kids understood by the end that expressing ourselves in a positive manner allows us to connect with ourselves and God.

Prayer Journal Challenge Week 3 Reflections


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Honestly I can not believe that I am entering in the last week of this challenge. It has truly been enlightening trying align my life with scripture. It has also been interesting how my problems are spoken about in the Bible. No matter what year it is some problems are just universal. This week has been a huge struggle for me. Even staying committed to the challenge. This week my biggest problems were my lack of faith and trust. I know its crazy to admit but there are moments in my life when I am like seriously :”wtf God”. I get angry and challenge him but I do this with all the important people in my life.


Trying to hold it together has been very hard. Especially when you think you’re going down the right path doing everything “right” and that was when it hit me. If you are so busy about doing it right, your desire for perfection tends to shut down any attempts to try. God is there for me and when I do trust him and stop trying to control everything I end up feeling better. Working on this relationship with God has help me see my own flaws and my strengths as well.

The Saga of my Novena to Our Lady of Candlaria Day 3


And here we are on day three. It has been an interesting 3 days so far. Even though I enjoy Bible studies. I am surprised by difficult it has been to write about my prayer life. And sharing it with all of you has been a very interesting to say the least. Anyways….

Day 3 Prayer:

Immaculate  Virgin of Candelaria, you did not doubt in giving your Son Jesus to Simeon who held him in his arms, knowing how he prayed in the temple for the grace of seeing the Redeemer. Pray that we, too, may desire to have Jesus in our hearts, like Simeon. You would willingly give him to us. May your will be done. Amen


Doubt….I have been having a lot of that lately. What is interesting, that not doubting yourself is protection from poverty in away. Or at least a coping mechanism. This prayer is referencing Luke Chapter 2. Simeon was considered “righteous and devote” (25).  The Holy Spirit was with him (prior to the Pentecost) (verse 25 NIV). God had promised him that before he died he would see the Messiah and God of course kept his promise. Based on the chapter Simeon was elderly and it seemed like all hope was lost. But because of his faith  he was able to receive the Holy Spirit he was able to hold Jesus in his arms and die in peace. What I took away from day 3 was that if we desire Jesus we will be successful. Our faith allows us to take the risks and leaps we need in order to become the best person we can be. We are asking the Virgin to help us receive Jesus and elevate doubt in our hearts.