Home Making and Chronic Illness: Idling or Resting??

 

So after three days of fighting Fibro and CVS, I finally managed to completely clean my room and check it off my cleaning schedule! I am so happy! However, everything does have it’s price: I was up at 1 am for about 45 mins with weird muscle spasms/charlie horse/dead leg thing happening in my calves and I was up again at 3 am, getting sick because of my CVS (this is a reoccurring theme though). It was unpleasant, to say the least. But through all the pain and vacuuming, I learned more than I ever could imagine. You see, Proverbs 31:27 talks about the bread of Idleness and what I did not understand was that there is a difference between idleness and rest.

According to the dictionary Rest is defined

noun

1.

the refreshing quiet or repose of sleep:

a good night’s rest.

2.

refreshing ease or inactivity after exertion or labor:

to allow an hour for rest.

3.

relief or freedom, especially from anything that wearies, troubles, or disturbs.”

While Idleness is defined as:

“noun

1.

the quality, state, or condition of being lazy, inactive, or idle:

His lack of interest in the larger world and his consummate idleness were the causes of their dreadful divorce.

adjective, idler, idlest.

1.

not working or active; unemployed; doing nothing:

idle workers.

2.

not spent or filled with activity:

idle hours.

3.

not in use or operation; not kept busy:

idle machinery.

4.

habitually doing nothing or avoiding work; lazy.

5.

of no real worth, importance, or significance:

idle talk.

6.

having no basis or reason; baseless; groundless:

idle fears.

7.

frivolous; vain:

idle pleasures.
verb (used without object), idled, idling.

10.

to pass time doing nothing.

11.

to move, loiter, or saunter aimlessly:

to idle along the avenue.

12.

(of a machine, engine, or mechanism) to operate at a low speed,disengaged from the load.
verb (used with object), idled, idling.

13.

to pass (time) doing nothing (often followed by away):

to idle away the afternoon.

14.

to cause (a person) to be idle:

The strike idled many workers.

15.

to cause (a machine, engine, or mechanism) to idle:

I waited in the car while idling the engine.
noun

16.

the state or quality of being idle.

17.

the state of a machine, engine, or mechanism that is idling:

a cold engine that stalls at idle.”
It was not until I read these definitions, did I understand that I was not being idle because I sat down to either prevent pain or because of pain. I also learned a definition of a new word as well:
I had finally realized that I had been incorporating this philosophy to my life and not even realizing it! So YAY ME! I also conquered my personal demons when applying this way of thinking to my daily life: I learned that I am more productive if I work WITHIN my Illness and not AROUND it. I am not a failure if I am sick and can’t do something right away! I am not being a good wife only if I do not adjust to my new normal. I am not being true to myself only if I continue to run around and get nothing done! So I want to say to everyone out there who is suffering from a chronic illness of any kind: God wants you to rest. If you do not, you cannot be the woman from Proverbs 31 He has called you to be. You must not only learn to rest but to accept that sometimes doing less is more.

Some More  Scripture to help you in these times of struggle are:

Isaiah 26:9
 In the night I search for you;
in the morning(Hebrew within me.) I earnestly seek you.
For only when you come to judge the earth
will people learn what is right.
Even in our pain if we earnestly seek the Lord, he will comfort us. We must always have faith in that.
Isaiah 14:7
But finally the earth is at rest and quiet.
Now it can sing again!
I also learned that when you do finally rest, you can do more! Essential-ism needs to be applied to life with Chronic Illness and God agrees. You are not less because you can’t do more. You are more because you do it with less.

3 thoughts on “Home Making and Chronic Illness: Idling or Resting??

  1. Hi! Thanks for your post on the importance of resting. I’m resting today after a flare up on my chronic illness and I was looking for some inspiration when I came across your post. I too struggle with the conflict of a need to ‘get stuff done’ verses the need to rest. I have simplified my life as much as possible which has helped. I find slowly over time my trust in the Lord has increased. My perspective has grown with the help of a wise spiritual director and now I see my flare ups more as Our Lord destabilizing me to cling to Him alone. I (try to- work in progress) cling to Him in my poverty of no achievements or accomplishments sometimes even what seemed very necessary jobs are left undone. I’m learning how Jesus can come to me with the treasure and wealth of his very self much more easily when I’m completely poor of spirit and body. His providence is always perfect. We know that for sure. He leaves me to be to poor and completely dependant on Him and I have discovered Him much more deeply than I think I would have if I was running around well tempted to being ‘self sufficient’. I know you will understand its a long process learning to walk this path of chronic illness. It is certainly an interesting adventure! I’ll say a prayer for you. Please say one for me. I’m going to make sure I rest!!!
    Rachel in New Zealand

    1. Rachel I am so happy to hear from you. I thank God that my words have reached you and made a difference for you. I am praying for you and your family. God wants us to cling to him in all things in the good and the bad with the same effort. It is one of our hardest lessons as Christians and I feel that it is an on going one. God Bless.

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